Day 48

   Okay- so I weighed in a day early, I couldn't wait! And boy, I sure was happy with what I read on the scale. I lost another 5 pounds, which is totally great and more than my weekly weight loss goal (3lbs).
    I think I'm finally starting to be able to see a difference in my body. I can tell a little around my stomach and a little in my face. It's nice being able to start SEEING some results. It's definitely making it more "real" and keeps me pumped up to continue trying my best.
    I had a HUGE diet "oh no" moment earlier today when a friend wanted to go to KFC and I realized that I wanted _everything_ on the menu, but couldn't _eat_ anything on it. I just clenched tight to my protein shake and waited it out.
   I've been giving myself a "cheat day", if you will, every 3-4 weeks or so. I had one for Thanksgiving, which I sampled almost every dessert! My next one is going to be Christmas dinner, but this time I'm skipping the desserts and saving the calories for my dinner roll, potatoes and gravy. Believe me, I'm counting down the days!
   Another thing I've started doing is Pilates. So far, it's kicking my butt, and it makes me sore for days. I'm not going to quit though. I'm due for another session tonight (Netflix is great for those videos, they have TONS so I never get bored). It's a little depressing though watching all those skinny minnies not even breaking a sweat and I'm dripping, crouched over and gasping for breath! I guess I'll go get ready for my reality check now.

So, this is day 48 and I weigh 254.

Day 45

     It's been quite a while since I updated, so here's a few things to catch up on! I weighed in on December 1'st and was sad to find that I had gained one pound from the previous weigh-in. Bringing me to 262. Then 5 days later on the 6'th of December, I weighed in again to find that I was back below my previous weight, this time I was 259 lbs. So, that was a relief. Either way, it's slowing down and my appetite is speeding up. What an awful combo! I'm due for another weigh-in on Wednesday the 14'th. I hope that I have lost a couple more pounds, but we'll see!

Day 33

   So I'd like to lose this weight by about September/October 2012 (since a couple friends are getting married in November/December and I'd like to be able to put on a dress and not look like I had to sew two together) so.. that gives me 9 or 10 months to lose roughly 110 lbs. This comes down to 11-13 lbs a month or 3-4 lbs a week - on average. I sure hope I can do it. So far this last month I've lost about 30 lbs, or an average of 7.5 lbs a week. I know it's going to become more difficult as I become a lower weight, but I'll just have to kick up the working out as I get more and more energy.
   I don't quite NEED to be at my goal weight (150) by the wedding times, but it sure is my dream! I'd be happy to get down to 200, I haven't been that light in years. Wish me luck!

Day 31

   Okay, so I've only lost 4 lbs in the last weekish. Hmph! Thanksgiving was nice. I was able to have a nice dinner with my Mother, Stepfather, Grandma, Grandpa and my brother. I was very good for the actual DINNER- no potatoes, no stuffing (which was the HARDEST part), no rolls, etc. However I did let my leash out a little for dessert. I mean, what's Thanksgiving without a little pumpkin pie, right? Sure, I probably could have done without the spice cake and strawberry shortcake.. but I did MUCH better than past years.
    I've started to do Pilates. Working with my hurt knee is keeping me from doing a few of the exercises but I'm doing my best with what I've got. With any luck, my knee will be getting better soon.

As I sit here, about to watch "Panic Room" and snacking on some grapes and a reduced fat string cheese, I am happy to announce my weight as 261- almost 30 lbs lighter than when I started one month ago!

GOODBYE MONTH ONE!

Day 23

   Okay, I weighed in again! I'm down 5 more pounds bringing me to 265. Granted it's half of what I've been losing the 2 prior weeks but I knew that it would start slowing down sooner or later. Plus, 10 lbs a week isn't recommended anyway.
    I've started to slowly work out, just trying to keep with it. I know that I'm eating well and everything but I'm at the point where I feel guilty if I become full. Ugh. Trying to find a "center" is something that I'm struggling with. It may also have come along with a my recent lack of weight lost. I know I shouldn't feel that way but sometimes I just can't help it. But hey, nothing about this seemed EASY in the beginning. Maybe this is just one of the first things I need to learn to get around.

Day 15

     Ah, my first weigh in since I started this 15 loooong days ago.  First off, I'd like to clear something up. It seems that I do not weigh 300, I weighed 290. This mistake was due to a faulty scale error.(Translation: it wasn't a digital scale. It went all the way around and back to 0, which I mistakenly thought was 300, but when I actually squatted down and looked, it was 290 = 0. Which if you ask me is a very odd place to stop!) Anyway, I stepped on the scale and couldn't even look down for at least 30 or more seconds. All I could think about was how upset I'd be if the number hadn't changed, or worse yet... gone up. I thought about all the changes I've made to my life and how difficult it's been. Once I finally gained the courage to look down, I was very happy I did.



This is day 15 and I weigh 270lbs.

Day 11

    Still sick, but much better than I was. I still haven't weighed in and at this point I think I may just wait till the 2 week mark instead. I hope I can wait. I'm so excited to see if I've lost anything yet. I sure hope so. I've been eating so good! Since I've been sick, I've put the workouts on the back burner so I'm hoping to get back on those in a day or two.
    I can't believe that the 2 week mark is coming up so fast. It really doesn't seem like it's been that long so far. I hope it stays like this! I have a couple friends who are getting married in October/November of 2012. My short term goal is to be 100lbs lighter by those weddings. Just thinking about buying a dress and not being completely disgusted in what's looking back at me in the mirror is my fuel keeping me going!