Day 33

   So I'd like to lose this weight by about September/October 2012 (since a couple friends are getting married in November/December and I'd like to be able to put on a dress and not look like I had to sew two together) so.. that gives me 9 or 10 months to lose roughly 110 lbs. This comes down to 11-13 lbs a month or 3-4 lbs a week - on average. I sure hope I can do it. So far this last month I've lost about 30 lbs, or an average of 7.5 lbs a week. I know it's going to become more difficult as I become a lower weight, but I'll just have to kick up the working out as I get more and more energy.
   I don't quite NEED to be at my goal weight (150) by the wedding times, but it sure is my dream! I'd be happy to get down to 200, I haven't been that light in years. Wish me luck!

Day 31

   Okay, so I've only lost 4 lbs in the last weekish. Hmph! Thanksgiving was nice. I was able to have a nice dinner with my Mother, Stepfather, Grandma, Grandpa and my brother. I was very good for the actual DINNER- no potatoes, no stuffing (which was the HARDEST part), no rolls, etc. However I did let my leash out a little for dessert. I mean, what's Thanksgiving without a little pumpkin pie, right? Sure, I probably could have done without the spice cake and strawberry shortcake.. but I did MUCH better than past years.
    I've started to do Pilates. Working with my hurt knee is keeping me from doing a few of the exercises but I'm doing my best with what I've got. With any luck, my knee will be getting better soon.

As I sit here, about to watch "Panic Room" and snacking on some grapes and a reduced fat string cheese, I am happy to announce my weight as 261- almost 30 lbs lighter than when I started one month ago!

GOODBYE MONTH ONE!

Day 23

   Okay, I weighed in again! I'm down 5 more pounds bringing me to 265. Granted it's half of what I've been losing the 2 prior weeks but I knew that it would start slowing down sooner or later. Plus, 10 lbs a week isn't recommended anyway.
    I've started to slowly work out, just trying to keep with it. I know that I'm eating well and everything but I'm at the point where I feel guilty if I become full. Ugh. Trying to find a "center" is something that I'm struggling with. It may also have come along with a my recent lack of weight lost. I know I shouldn't feel that way but sometimes I just can't help it. But hey, nothing about this seemed EASY in the beginning. Maybe this is just one of the first things I need to learn to get around.

Day 15

     Ah, my first weigh in since I started this 15 loooong days ago.  First off, I'd like to clear something up. It seems that I do not weigh 300, I weighed 290. This mistake was due to a faulty scale error.(Translation: it wasn't a digital scale. It went all the way around and back to 0, which I mistakenly thought was 300, but when I actually squatted down and looked, it was 290 = 0. Which if you ask me is a very odd place to stop!) Anyway, I stepped on the scale and couldn't even look down for at least 30 or more seconds. All I could think about was how upset I'd be if the number hadn't changed, or worse yet... gone up. I thought about all the changes I've made to my life and how difficult it's been. Once I finally gained the courage to look down, I was very happy I did.



This is day 15 and I weigh 270lbs.

Day 11

    Still sick, but much better than I was. I still haven't weighed in and at this point I think I may just wait till the 2 week mark instead. I hope I can wait. I'm so excited to see if I've lost anything yet. I sure hope so. I've been eating so good! Since I've been sick, I've put the workouts on the back burner so I'm hoping to get back on those in a day or two.
    I can't believe that the 2 week mark is coming up so fast. It really doesn't seem like it's been that long so far. I hope it stays like this! I have a couple friends who are getting married in October/November of 2012. My short term goal is to be 100lbs lighter by those weddings. Just thinking about buying a dress and not being completely disgusted in what's looking back at me in the mirror is my fuel keeping me going!

Day 8

   UGH. So due to an unfortunate case of some sort of wicked cold, I cannot weigh in today. See- I weigh in at work since I do not have a scale at home and I could not go to work today. Kinda stinks since I was really looking forward to seeing if I have lost any weight yet and if so, how much. But there's always tomorrow!
   So far I've been doing well at sticking to my diet. I did however have a very realistic dream last night about a burger and fries though! Hehe, I s'pose those are bound to happen. Since it's now been one week and I think I have most of the eating temptations under control, I think it's time to start working out. I'm sick right now so I think I'll start with a mile or so walks every evening and then start to add in the total gym once I'm feeling a little less weak.

GOODBYE WEEK ONE!